Starting Over
and over again...
just saw a program"starting over",canadian real life show. its about a group of woman who had their own problems in life:got fired by her own atitude, over weight and heavy smoker which is jeopardizing her life: a strapper trying to start over a new life n try to put her past behind, a self pity woman who cannot get over her ex-boyfriend, another still cannot get over her mom's death caused by 911.They all have common problems, anger, self pity, sorrow over the past and self restricted to communicate with others. they had difficulties to communicate within the same house......
This show's title makes me think and think...."starting over". i have an sudden urge to ask the person who undestand me the most-my mom some questions: eg, how am i as a person? what was i like when i was young? how can i improve myself as a person? then i want to ask my ex similar questions. you might say "why should you bother about what others think"? in fact, i just want to do good for myself.... half of my life must have passed by...and may be i have been sick for too long...i suddenly realised i am getting old, however appearance does not really matters yet my heart is. but i feel that i am still a kid deep down inside and that's a problem. Life seems to be simple yet complex for me. i guess its all depends on how your own atitude towards it.
i deeply feel that i need to START OVER now. bit by bit....first thing is my bad habbits, then life style, attitude towards life....some might say "life is hard enough, why push yourself into stress? Again....its the atitude toward the subject...i need to start over i might be happier. i need to understand myself and face myself first.
wow....it must be the turning of decade again...it makes me think.and it also make me think how many of my new year revolutions had been accomplished???
well...lets start with my living habits....and face things that i am scared of....
02nov2005 YVR
just saw a program"starting over",canadian real life show. its about a group of woman who had their own problems in life:got fired by her own atitude, over weight and heavy smoker which is jeopardizing her life: a strapper trying to start over a new life n try to put her past behind, a self pity woman who cannot get over her ex-boyfriend, another still cannot get over her mom's death caused by 911.They all have common problems, anger, self pity, sorrow over the past and self restricted to communicate with others. they had difficulties to communicate within the same house......
This show's title makes me think and think...."starting over". i have an sudden urge to ask the person who undestand me the most-my mom some questions: eg, how am i as a person? what was i like when i was young? how can i improve myself as a person? then i want to ask my ex similar questions. you might say "why should you bother about what others think"? in fact, i just want to do good for myself.... half of my life must have passed by...and may be i have been sick for too long...i suddenly realised i am getting old, however appearance does not really matters yet my heart is. but i feel that i am still a kid deep down inside and that's a problem. Life seems to be simple yet complex for me. i guess its all depends on how your own atitude towards it.
i deeply feel that i need to START OVER now. bit by bit....first thing is my bad habbits, then life style, attitude towards life....some might say "life is hard enough, why push yourself into stress? Again....its the atitude toward the subject...i need to start over i might be happier. i need to understand myself and face myself first.
wow....it must be the turning of decade again...it makes me think.and it also make me think how many of my new year revolutions had been accomplished???
well...lets start with my living habits....and face things that i am scared of....
02nov2005 YVR
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